hello readers. how’ve you been?
here I am again, it’s been a minute. I’ve been struggling to find interesting topics to write about so I figured right about now I would just start writing and stop worrying about if it’s interesting or too honest or any other thing I fear my writing may or may not be.
so maybe i’ll start a new series on here: honesty hour. the stuff I think a lot of people relate to but don’t want to talk about. let’s do this.
as I approach my senior year in high school I find that nearly everywhere I go someone is asking me what I want to do after high school, where I want to go, what my options are, etc etc. and it could literally drive me insane. it’s got me thinking though that we should stop telling people what they want to hear to avoid awkward silence.
because what I want to do, where I want to go is not a place or a career or a major. people keep telling me I have time to figure things out but I don’t need time to know where my heart is and always has been. this isn’t about college or adulthood, it’s about the fact that too many people think they’re confused because they’re looking for answers outside themselves.
I don’t need a college or a teacher to tell me that it is in my heart to help people. I am not looking for confirmation of my belief that what I have experienced in my life must be used for greater good. where I go, physically, will not change any of that.
everybody is lost at some point, whether you’re 16 or 67. but home base is your passion. some people don’t know what theirs is but everyone have one. I think a lot of us are scared to admit that we have a love for and are drawn to a path far from that anyone has laid for us.
I think the bottom line is that you know yourself better than anyone else. maybe you have to look a little deeper but there is something that gets you out of bed in the morning, figure it out and grab onto it because at the end of the day, at the end of your life or however you would like to put it, it’s just you that’s gonna wish you had gone after your heart.
I believe serving others is powerful, but acting to please others will destroy you.
so excuse me for being blunt, but screw everyone telling you that you were cut out for one specific path or career or lifestyle.
what about you? what do you think you’re supposed to do?
don’t get me wrong, thank God we have people around us who support us and advise us, but sometimes you have to respectfully tune them out and narrow your eyes onto your soul and your passion. what you’re meant for is a compilation of everything you’ve seen and experienced. through your own eyes. the eyes no one else has or ever will see through.
so take that, take the way you feel about everything that’s ever happened to you. notice what makes you hurt and what makes you laugh and figure out what that means for you.
it’s all you. you got this.
much love,
claire
“you know you are doing well when you lose the interest of looking back.”